...better off on my own

The best part of being alone is that you want to be with someone whenever you are so. It's just a freakin' vicious circle. When you're with someone, you want to be alone, and vice versa. That's not good, by 'any' situation or time span. I am back in the rut, but this time, I think I'm in a much better position to handle things that I was 2 years back. Psychology taught me something after all :P

What makes you regret a relationship? Is it because it was untimely? Or because did it take up your precious time and you could have done something better? I for one never regret relationships. Everyone teaches you something about yourself, and you come that much closer to finding yourself. That doesn't mean go and get a boy/girlfriend every chance you get, but it does mean that you have no reason to feel bad something got over. Look at it the bright way, it helps ... trust me!

So, being at home helps heal the wounds much faster. I hope they heal completely by the time I get back to college, got lots of work to do. Things aren't as bad as they seem however, or I fear them to be. It's all good, as long as one keeps the good in mind, and his feet on the ground.

I think I still make sense!

My saving grace

We as children (I'm not one anymore, but still, would like to think of myself as one) tend to forget the role our parents have played in our lives. They have been there with us since the time we came into this world (actually, even before that!), and have taken all steps, cares and precautions to make sure we have a good and comfortable upbringing. I'm talking about normal homes ofcourse. Why then do we forget them? Is it because we think we know more and better than them?

I was just sitting and these little flashes of images came which reminded me how my parents took pains to make sure I was happy, and went way out of their way to give me what I needed/wanted. No one except parents would do that, and still, there are times when I forget to call them and ask them how they are. They'd be thinking about me, about how I am and how I'm doing atleast twice the amount of times I have thought of calling them up. I feel guilty sometimes, but I know that it has got nothing to do with just me or a few people. As we learn in psychology, it's a psychological phase that we all go through where the independence from the people we've been with all our lives tends to liberate our minds to the limit that we (unconsciously) don't think in their direction.

But that is still not an excuse. We are responsible for our parents after a certain point of time, role reversals you can say. I don't know if this feeling will actually go away (as the textbooks say), or it might persist. I really don't want it to stay, because my parents are very important to me. They are literally my last line of hope when everything else fails. The comforting fact that I can go to them with any thing that I might be facing will always be associated with just them, no one else. Because no one else can, honestly, be trusted to that level.

My saving graces, and angels, are truly my parents. My angels in this life.